I’m 39 weeks and 2 days pregnant. Where did the time go? It’s been over a year since our move to Seattle, and I feel like I’m just starting to settle in and really call this place our home. I’ve been trying to explore more of Seattle before this baby comes, but it’s pretty hard with an active toddler in tow. It really is so beautiful up here, but when people ask how it’s been for me, I’m not going to lie…it was a tough year being away from family and friends, going back into education, leaving behind the world of weddings & events, and being pregnant with a very rambunctious toddler, but I know God is strengthening me, my faith, and my marriage through all of this. I don’t know what God has in store for us…our future, at times seems unclear, which being a planner by nature makes it difficult to accept, but I’m at peace with it because I know God’s plans are far greater than ours. For now, I just wanted to sit, enjoy this moment of solitude while both my boys are napping, my parents are at church , and write down my thoughts before our world changes with a newborn to take care of…
Honestly, I thought I’d have the baby by now. Perhaps it was wishful thinking because I just feel SO big and tired. It really is an amazing thing watching your body change and transform while carrying a baby in your womb, but I’m definitely bigger with Devyn than I was with Deacon and I was secretly hoping she’d come out early so I could start shedding this pregnancy weight (I know, what’s wrong with me?!). Deacon came exactly a week early and everyone said the second would come early. Alas, there’s no baby yet, but my parents are here from TX (hallelujah!) and they’ve been cooking up a storm for us and keeping Deacon occupied so I can nap and get some rest.
David and I have been enjoying the last few days going on date nights. We got to celebrate our 5th anniversary with the sweetest post on his own blog, a homemade steak dinner (one of my favorite meals that David cooks), a late night happy hour at Ruth’s Chris, and watched MI5. After 5 years of marriage + 2 pregnancies + 1 toddler, I realized it’s the little things that make my world go ’round with this guy. I always knew I wanted a husband who would make a great dad, and I saw glimpses of it when David would help out with his nieces, but seeing him with Deacon has made my love for him grow deeper in a way I never knew was possible. I’m so excited to see how he’ll love on Devyn as well.
Last but not least, Deacon. This little boy has my heart. I seriously cry like a baby when I think about how big he’s grown—physically, emotionally, and mentally. He’s always been on the average side for weight and height, but I think he’s hit a growth spurt because he’s eating similar portions to his papa and everyone says how tall he’s gotten. Emotionally, he’s such a sweetheart. When he sees me crying, he’ll run over to me and say, “Umma’s crying” and have a concerned look on his face, touch my face to wipe my tears and then give me THE biggest hug. I can tell he has a compassionate heart, just like his papa. His personality is something else too, definitely an extrovert and receives his energy from being around people. David and I joke that he gets it from his uncles on both sides, because both of us were the shyest little kids. Mentally, I can tell he’s maturing and we’ve been trying to teach him his boundaries (especially while “playing” with other little kids). He does great with older kids, but something about being with younger kids/babies makes him go…”wild.” Obviously, it concerns me since we’ll be welcoming a newborn into our home. As much as we’re trying to prepare him for his little sister, my heart aches when I think about how much his world will be changing in a short while. I know he’ll be the best big brother, but I’m going to miss the one on one time I’ve had with him this past summer. David and I want to do our best in shepherding his little heart.
I know I’ve said this before, but I hope to keep blogging to help me remember these treasured times together as a family. Please pray for us as we wait for baby Devyn’s arrival!